Well, hello.

[SynOxy]

Alright, I don't know why I'm doing this. Typically I don't get a response in these kinds of forums for some reason, but I'm trying to connect. Again.

And to be honest, I'm terrified just posting this up here. I'm writing and re-writing this introduction trying to find the right words to express myself and I can tell it's not working. So, I guess I'll just post a few things about myself, as per typical introductions.

- I draw and paint as a hobby, but hope to write as a profession once I finally learn to write something worthwhile.

- I'm married, and my husband is the most wonderful thing in my life. He's kept me going even when I don't think I have the strength to.

- I've been depressed as long as I can remember. It's just been a fact of my life.

- Although I did suffer from abuse as a child, I can't say it was your standard, textbook sort of abuse. Definitely emotional, mental and physical, but bizarre. Maybe I'll explain later.

- I dealt with a lot of harassment through school - verbal and sexual.

- I was a self-harmer for a very long time, but I grew out of suicidal tendencies around puberty.

- I also have severe anxiety problems.

- I'm smart. Or at least I'd like to think I'm smart.

- For some horrible reason I feel like whoever reading this is mocking me right now. So, uhm, I'm sorry if this bothered you? I'm not particularly sure how else to write it, though.

I guess, I don't know what to say. At least not yet. It's a pleasure to meet all of you, and I hope to high heaven that this wasn't a waste of time equivalent to me screaming my problems at a wall. This community seems nice.

[jj]

Hugs to you synoxy,

It's a pleasure to meet you too and I hope you feel welcome here. I also suffered abuse growing up of the emotional / psychological kind, maybe we will find something in common when you share more of your story when you're ready.

See you around

jj

[TonyK]

Alright, I don't know why I'm doing this. Typically I don't get a response in these kinds of forums for some reason, but I'm trying to connect. Again.

And to be honest, I'm terrified just posting this up here. I'm writing and re-writing this introduction trying to find the right words to express myself and I can tell it's not working. So, I guess I'll just post a few things about myself, as per typical introductions.

- I draw and paint as a hobby, but hope to write as a profession once I finally learn to write something worthwhile.

- I'm married, and my husband is the most wonderful thing in my life. He's kept me going even when I don't think I have the strength to.

- I've been depressed as long as I can remember. It's just been a fact of my life.

- Although I did suffer from abuse as a child, I can't say it was your standard, textbook sort of abuse. Definitely emotional, mental and physical, but bizarre. Maybe I'll explain later.

- I dealt with a lot of harassment through school - verbal and sexual.

- I was a self-harmer for a very long time, but I grew out of suicidal tendencies around puberty.

- I also have severe anxiety problems.

- I'm smart. Or at least I'd like to think I'm smart.

- For some horrible reason I feel like whoever reading this is mocking me right now. So, uhm, I'm sorry if this bothered you? I'm not particularly sure how else to write it, though.

I guess, I don't know what to say. At least not yet. It's a pleasure to meet all of you, and I hope to high heaven that this wasn't a waste of time equivalent to me screaming my problems at a wall. This community seems nice.

I think you did a excellent job writing your intro and rest assured nobody is mocking you. Cheers

[imemi]

Welcome Synoxy,

I'm new, You did a great job of introducing yourself and should find a lot of help and there are WONDERFUL people on here.

Good luck with everything!