I've been around many of the different internet self help forums and banned from most of them. I pretty much keep the same two user names, Search and Davekyn. I have nothing to hide and could care less what people may think ... whence bearing my soul. I am what I am.
Much easier that way to avoid disappointments with making new friends.
Many will tell you such honesty will only alienate ... I find such an attitude deceptive and somewhat selfish.
I'm starting to see that the details of my past are of no real benefit to others, therefore shall try a different approach in this forum. (as much I can) (a har ... therein lies the real issue with communicating, this I am slowly learning ... is in fact, to be heard. One forum after the other -chuckles-)
I sometimes can't help but speak my mind, but do my best to remain as civil as I can be ... mostly. but not always.
I am diagnosed as simply just being an unstable person ... they tell me this and that and I have had my shares of troubles, as we all have. I steer clear of Religion and Politics, although I do have seem to of held onto a spiritual side of myself that I value to some degree. This I am careful not to get too mystical with as it seems to be the case for so many lost individuals. Sad indeed.
Sadness ... well I have been dealing with tat for 44 years now and am getting as tired as the next person...but alas, soldier on I DO!
Whilst I say I do not deal with Religion and Politics ... I am very much still hung up on the issues to some degree. It seems inescapable once I step outside my door. I don't do to well with Religious and Political expression in depression forums as well. Spirituality ... yes I can handle that. More so how we see and live what resides deep in ourselves. (This is in conflict with many religious self help forums l resulting in bias with various admins and thus moderators)
To those humans that subscribe to Job, house, presentation and things; I seek to disassociate with completely ... therefore another reason I often find myself alienated and forum Jumping. Not many people like the things I have to say.
I am not opposed to rules and regulations as much as I thought others labeled me to be. I am coming to see, that it's more about my frustration living in a world where there are too many leaders and not enough followers. Everyone wants to be more than what they already are. From here I typically go into one of my rants on consumerism and bla bla ... you get what I mean.
Accountability, Expectations, Obligations, rar rar and rar ... don't ya just get sick of hearing that crap. Sure these things are important, but the way so many people brings these topics to bear, blaming others for having themselves striven so hard and so long in their own resentments.
Guilt and Fear the driving force of religion & politics to which encompass our now society. rar rar & a little more rar ... Sigh ...
From the moment we are conceived ...
bla bla bla
All great topics and very relevant in order to understand how things tick! ... I guess you could say I am a non conformist that seeks to share with those who are like minded. But truth be told ... my mind can get quite explosive with highs and lows.
Perhaps that causes much ignorance on my part, as much as I dare to judge in others. (No Doubt!) Communication is breaking down around everywhere. The internet as good as it is, for allowing us to be free, also opens us up; to be bound.
At any rate ... whoever is still with me after reading this Post:
Its an honer to meet ya.
Best to have only a few friends rather than six billion likes!
filter them out by being honest with yourself.
