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Heterophobia- Fear of the opposite sex. (Sexophobia)

Posted: Wed Dec 31, 2014 2:24 pm
by catt02
Do you have Heterophobia- Fear of the opposite sex. (Sexophobia)

Posted: Fri Jan 02, 2015 3:33 pm
by jvincent
Does this count?
When I was little I was not allowed to even look at girls because it lead to impure thoughts. Until I was in my 20s if i even thought about talking to a girl I liked I would shiver so badly I could not talk if i wanted to. I love women but to this day I have never approached one that I wanted. I accidentally fell into a relationship with someone who was everything I ever wanted. I thought she was my one true love in my life.. But because I have no experience with such things I accidentally killed her love for me forever.

Posted: Fri Jan 02, 2015 4:41 pm
by 100footpole
JVincent,

When I read your post I shiver. It is an unfinished story, and you are the author. I accidentally killed her love for me forever ... is the end of this chapter, but remember how it began:

I have never approached one that I wanted. I accidentally fell into a relationship with someone who was everything I ever wanted.

As the author of your story, how do you want the next chapter to begin, by action or by chance?

Either way will work. Good luck to you.

Posted: Fri Jan 02, 2015 6:15 pm
by jvincent
I have the battle in my head to move on and write a new story every day.

Burn the old and start a new story was actually an assignment from a psyche friend. I still have a blank page open on my computer at home for it.

It has been 2 months but it seems like I am reliving the end of my story every night when the darkest part of her visits me in my nightmares. I never knew how badly the lack of sleep could mess with your mind until this.
I only sleep now because of drugs.
I imagine the nightmares will subside someday, and i will begin a new chapter.
until then I just hope it happens soon. I am over 40 and there are not many pages left for me to burn.
anyway.
Thanks for the vote of confidence pole.