) and my husband is deployed already... only for a month, but it's killing me!
My biggest fear is my husband dying. I couldn't imagine life without him. He is my rock, my better half. I do suffer from depression and anxiety and that's just making this separation even harder. I can't always contact him and he can't get online often, so I'm worried ALL day long until I hear from him.
More than anything, I'm scared that my constant fears will be what ultimately push him away. Because I'm like this even when he's home. If he's out running errands and I hear an ambulance, I immediately call to make sure he's okay... and I'm sure that gets annoying. But my heart can't take not knowing
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