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I'll try to keep this short.

I have severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

I can spend hours switching a light on and off to make sure I do it right, I spend hours washing myself to make sure I'm perfect. If I notice a flaw on myself I become furious and scream or cry angrily.

My OCD Is extremely hard to live with. Every day seems like a perseverance on what seems futile. My anger puts me on bad terms with a lot of people, I find it hard to control.

I over analyse things to, I spend hours systematically planning how I would commit suicide if my life where to spiral downwards, even though I could never do it as I lack the confidence.

Here's an example of my OCD, when I self harmed in the past I would make symmetrical shapes. I'm past that now thankfully. Everything must be organised for me, or I will repeat my actions again and again until it feels right in my head.

Anyway, I know my problems are not as significant as others, but I struggle to deal with my OCD.

Thank you for reading.

OldSpeckledHen, never for a minute ever think that you aren't important. We all have worth, including you. I'm sorry you are struggling so much with the OCD. I have seen you in the chat room and it's good to see you out here as well.

try not to minimize yourself or let others do it to you speak up if it is done it needs to be addressed i view it as a form of abuse but then i am very sensitive i hope you are able to find a way to manage your ocd symptoms better in the future i do not share your problems but i can try to be here for support if im around in chat i certainly wont claim my condition is any worse then yours.