The Old Speckled Hen's story. (possible trigger)

[OldSpeckledHen]

I'll try to keep this short.

I have severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

I can spend hours switching a light on and off to make sure I do it right, I spend hours washing myself to make sure I'm perfect. If I notice a flaw on myself I become furious and scream or cry angrily.

My OCD Is extremely hard to live with. Every day seems like a perseverance on what seems futile. My anger puts me on bad terms with a lot of people, I find it hard to control.

I over analyse things to, I spend hours systematically planning how I would commit suicide if my life where to spiral downwards, even though I could never do it as I lack the confidence.

Here's an example of my OCD, when I self harmed in the past I would make symmetrical shapes. I'm past that now thankfully. Everything must be organised for me, or I will repeat my actions again and again until it feels right in my head.

Anyway, I know my problems are not as significant as others, but I struggle to deal with my OCD.

Thank you for reading.

[Obayan]

OldSpeckledHen, never for a minute ever think that you aren't important. We all have worth, including you. I'm sorry you are struggling so much with the OCD. I have seen you in the chat room and it's good to see you out here as well.

[justin]

try not to minimize yourself or let others do it to you speak up if it is done it needs to be addressed i view it as a form of abuse but then i am very sensitive i hope you are able to find a way to manage your ocd symptoms better in the future i do not share your problems but i can try to be here for support if im around in chat i certainly wont claim my condition is any worse then yours.