I know what you feel
Posted: Thu Dec 24, 2009 2:31 pm
we,ll were nearly at the day lots of us have dreaded ,weve worried and
felt ill ,and alone ,frightened and confused,its knotted our tummys and
made us feel sick inside ,recognise all these feelings and more dont you
my dear freinds ,you see now how we feel the same pain ,how could you
feel alone ,when a thosand voices all cry out together ,as the visitor and its cohorts try to trample our souls and compound our feelings till they are nothing more than dust ,it waits to see them blown away in the winds
of time ,were are you now ,playing the role of wife, mother ,wearing the
mask of happiness while you play the role expected of you ,or husband
and father like myself ,but inside you hang on to your thoughts and shut
out the whispers of the demon that has made its home inside your mind
or you may be laid somewere dark and lonely unable to cope with the
tasks ,that are awaiting you ,,but do you see how ,does ken know all these things ,he,s thoasands of miles away ,,,youve read my words ive
felt all these things you may feel now ,,oh many times ive fallen and laid
alone cold and without care ,drifted into a haunted sleep ,walked with russ
talk with my god ,,woken from that strange slumber to find ,a warrior at
my side ,who has shown such bravery and strentgh ,ive seen him stand face to face with the visitor and drive it back ,so i may stand and regain my strentgh ,and here i am now ,talking to you even as i speak i cry inside because i know your absence may mean it has you in its grip ,
were do i get my strength you may ask ,,we,ll from my wife who needs me to be her staff to hold on to when she grasps for that air she longs to breath ,from my two lovely girls whom ive brought up to be clever and kind and funny ,like i once was ,,,and then along came the forum ,and one
by one i met new freinds ,i came here looking for answers ,and now i can only think of trying somehow to reach each and every one of you ,
so you know even when it seems theres no end in sight ,the darkness will
clear one day ,and you may only get glimpses at first ,things you think
you saw ,or feelings you may have lost ,but just for a breif moment that
warm feeling returns ,and then after a few days you realise maybe you dont feel so bad ,a little hope ,like i have now ,i think this cant last ,but you know while its here ,im using it up and wearing it out ,how many times have i wanted to be alone ,i do get comfort from withdrawing when i feel bad ,so you see i know what your feeling ,,i cant offer you anything other than the knowledge that we all have a simaler pain ,and that you must never feel alone ,we must all stay together ,we all have warriors within us ,we just need to find them ,just call out and someone will hear you ,read those words that we send each other ,carry them with you at all times ,your all here with me now ,and were ever you are right now in this world we are with you ,,my dear freinds,any thing you ask of me ,
i will grant it no question ,i will fight for you ,i will bleed for you and i will
win for you ,because as i sit here now ,i can see a great army of warriors
and that is you my dear freinds ,you have all lifted me from the dust of battle many times and i will never let you down ,,,,,thankyou the holiday will be over soon and i hope those of you who suffer ,will regain your strentgh ,stay safe ,and strong
,,love and hugs to my dear freinds everybody,,,,,ken
Aim, dandelion,a5,lisa,mich,shatteredhopes,hanging on,monty,blueisgreen,crystalgaze,crybaby,warmie girl.Deepeyes
all my dear freinds, ,,,,goodnight ,,,,,,,,ken
felt ill ,and alone ,frightened and confused,its knotted our tummys and
made us feel sick inside ,recognise all these feelings and more dont you
my dear freinds ,you see now how we feel the same pain ,how could you
feel alone ,when a thosand voices all cry out together ,as the visitor and its cohorts try to trample our souls and compound our feelings till they are nothing more than dust ,it waits to see them blown away in the winds
of time ,were are you now ,playing the role of wife, mother ,wearing the
mask of happiness while you play the role expected of you ,or husband
and father like myself ,but inside you hang on to your thoughts and shut
out the whispers of the demon that has made its home inside your mind
or you may be laid somewere dark and lonely unable to cope with the
tasks ,that are awaiting you ,,but do you see how ,does ken know all these things ,he,s thoasands of miles away ,,,youve read my words ive
felt all these things you may feel now ,,oh many times ive fallen and laid
alone cold and without care ,drifted into a haunted sleep ,walked with russ
talk with my god ,,woken from that strange slumber to find ,a warrior at
my side ,who has shown such bravery and strentgh ,ive seen him stand face to face with the visitor and drive it back ,so i may stand and regain my strentgh ,and here i am now ,talking to you even as i speak i cry inside because i know your absence may mean it has you in its grip ,
were do i get my strength you may ask ,,we,ll from my wife who needs me to be her staff to hold on to when she grasps for that air she longs to breath ,from my two lovely girls whom ive brought up to be clever and kind and funny ,like i once was ,,,and then along came the forum ,and one
by one i met new freinds ,i came here looking for answers ,and now i can only think of trying somehow to reach each and every one of you ,
so you know even when it seems theres no end in sight ,the darkness will
clear one day ,and you may only get glimpses at first ,things you think
you saw ,or feelings you may have lost ,but just for a breif moment that
warm feeling returns ,and then after a few days you realise maybe you dont feel so bad ,a little hope ,like i have now ,i think this cant last ,but you know while its here ,im using it up and wearing it out ,how many times have i wanted to be alone ,i do get comfort from withdrawing when i feel bad ,so you see i know what your feeling ,,i cant offer you anything other than the knowledge that we all have a simaler pain ,and that you must never feel alone ,we must all stay together ,we all have warriors within us ,we just need to find them ,just call out and someone will hear you ,read those words that we send each other ,carry them with you at all times ,your all here with me now ,and were ever you are right now in this world we are with you ,,my dear freinds,any thing you ask of me ,
i will grant it no question ,i will fight for you ,i will bleed for you and i will
win for you ,because as i sit here now ,i can see a great army of warriors
and that is you my dear freinds ,you have all lifted me from the dust of battle many times and i will never let you down ,,,,,thankyou the holiday will be over soon and i hope those of you who suffer ,will regain your strentgh ,stay safe ,and strong
,,love and hugs to my dear freinds everybody,,,,,ken
Aim, dandelion,a5,lisa,mich,shatteredhopes,hanging on,monty,blueisgreen,crystalgaze,crybaby,warmie girl.Deepeyes
all my dear freinds, ,,,,goodnight ,,,,,,,,ken