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umm hi, ill cut to the chase i guess, im a 21 male bi polar sufferer and feel for the first time in my life i really am at the end of the rope, i would never do anything to end my life because i could never ever hurt my mum like that as she means more to me than anything, but at the moment im not really living, at the moment im just existing and the bad days are now starting to heavily outnumber the good, i have never felt ths low before and im pretty scared, and its getting harder to keep on fighting it and i dont know how long before i just cant be bothered anymore, i really dont know where else to turn, if anyone can try to help me even i the smallest way it would mean so much to me, thank you

Well though how hard it is you need to carry on on this site were all a family and we all help each other out. just keep going and i pray and hope that your good days will soon out number the bad ones.

You will be in my thoughts :]

thank you for replying x bless you, i guess i just want some human contact at the moment as i feel so detached, even though ive got over depression before i need to keep reminding myself i can defeat it, just feels such a struggle at the moment

From 1 freind to another im 13 years old and depressed i know its hard but online contact works try calling a family member or a doctor? they help alot if not then just keep posting im quite interested about what you wrote, it helps to talk to people on here.

Have a great day my friend

I know the feeling of not wanting to live and struggling to just to merely exist...it is wonderful that you beat it before, and hopefully you can again, but it might be good to get some help...if you are in a position to see a doctor, that might be a good thing to do...

Welcome to the site! The people here are very caring and supportive. Post as much as you need to or feel like, as for me I know just writing things out helps a little...

You are not alone.

well im glad i discovered this place as im aware being around other people who understand helps, i might try to get some sleep as i haven't slept in about a day and a half, but i shall return at some point as i think this website could help a lot, and as for doctors and psychiatrists i hate the cold mechanical way they asses problems and it often makes me feel worse and even less human, im on prozac at the moment and still waiting for it to kick in and i prey it does soon, anyway bless you andrea and shatteredhopes and hopefully we will talk again sometime x

hey there ,what are you looking for in life ,your young ,are you on medication ,im 51 and have been depressed for many years ,dont talk of death it is something we know noting about ,who ever came back and said it was so great ,everyday is a living hell for me ,but i have to go on no matter how hard the pain , you will feel better ,we all have a special gift ,givin to us hidden in the very thing that trys to destroy us ,its
compassion ,only someone who suffers as we do understands what simple kind words will do ,post to other users here ,and your kindness will
touch them and make you feel good also ,you have onlly to reach out here and we will catch your fall ,ive been to the place were you are now
the door were if you enter you cannot return ,ive looked in 3 times in my youth ,let me tell you its not pretty ,the demons will torment you for all eternity ,and the pain you leave behind will touch your loved ones forever
stay strong and walk with us here ,here take my hand and well read some posts together just so you can see your amoung freinds
stay safe my dear freind ,,,,,,,,,,xn728

A warm hug for you ((((((((((((((( DeepEyes ))))))))))))))))))))))

Hey there, welcome to the family, I am a bipolar myself, im on dothiepin, epilim and also xanax for my anxiety. so far i manage to avoid xanax but i need to take 800mgs epilim per day and also 100mgs dothiepin per day, those meds are kinda helping, i dont have any suicidal thoughts and i am getting positive about certain things. I hope prozac helps you to feel and get better. keep fighting and be strong, i find that writing helps me to express my feelings and emotions, i hope by coming here you will get the support and know that we will all be here for you and we will help each other. As for sleeping, i have trouble with that as well, usually i only get 2 hours to 3 hours maximum and its just exhausting, isnt it? This is only suggestion, i found this over at the internet, maybe it might help you, i ve done some of it and so far i manage to get more than 5 hours sleep:


10 Ways to Cure Insomnia

1.Limit food, liquids, and caffeine for a couple of hours before bed. Your body needs to start resting before it completely relaxes. This is an easy way to cure insomnia.

2.Learn whether you're a morning lark or night owl (or neither!) and make the most of it. If you love to get up at the crack of dawn, then don't force yourself into a different schedule. Learn your rhythms and let them shape your sleeping habits naturally.

3.Check your medications. If you're on a prescription that disrupts sleep, talk to your doctor or herbalist about remedies for insomnia.

4.Exercise regularly (but not close to bedtime) because your health affects the quality of your sleep. Whether it's yoga, fencing, running, or going for a walk – get oxygen and move your body around. This is a healthy way to cure insomnia.

5.Read, meditate, pray, or listen to relaxing music at least half an hour before your appointed sleep hour. Let yourself wind down slowly.

6.Keep a journal or pad of paper by your bed; write your worries and thoughts down. There will be plenty of time to deal with them tomorrow.

7.Stay positive. Even if you don't fall asleep fast, don't let frustration or anger wind you up. Adopt a positive mindset (and keep practicing until it becomes a habit – it may even spill over into your days!).

8.Check your sleeping partner. Your partner may be a night owl and you may be staying up late too; this could easily disrupt your sleep schedule. This way to cure insomnia involves organizing your schedules so they complement one another.

9.Deal with disturbances. You may need to find healthy, creative solutions to cure insomnia if you're sleeping with a partner who snores, moves around a lot, or is on a different schedule. Love may be blind, but it's not oblivious.

10.Go to bed and get up at the same time each day. Your body will learn to start winding down as the appointed hour approaches, and will be easier to rouse the next day. This is a structured way to cure insomnia.

BONUS TIP: Clear your bedroom of your tv, exercise bike, office equipment, laptop, and phones. To fall asleep fast, let your bedroom be a quiet haven of peace and rest.

hope it helps

hugs
dandelion

Try to remember that you CAN still have good days in the future, things CAN still get better. One of the worst things about depression, I find is that it feels like snakes and ladders, it's a lot harder to recover from a bad day than it is to slide into one. And, every depressive episode or anxiety attack seems to roll in as insolently and implacably as ever it did.
EG:Today is my eighth day back at work, after a long period of sickness absence, and so I made a rather obvious mistake that I wouldn't normally have made. And, my self-esteem and anxiety immediately plummeted, and I've been bringing myself back from an incipient anxiety attack ever since. However, it helps me to cope to remember that there was a time when I was vastly worse. So much worse that I couldn't even imagine recovering to the point where I am now.
I'm not bipolar myself, so I can't really help you there. But, might it help you to keep a journal or some kind of record of your " peaks " and " troughs " ? However, bad a day I have, it so helps me helps to be able to look back and remind myself that If I've had much worse days in the past, then I can have much better days in the future.
Have you considered getting in touch with MIND, if you haven't already done so? I've found them helpful?
It took quite a while, but I'm finding Prozac helpful. Good Luck!

Welcome to the forum DeepEyes. I am glad you found us. I am sufferer of severe treatment resistant depression and I understand the depth of the pain you are feeling. Please hang in there and remember that the pain will subside. Try to distract yourself away from thinking about it (I know how hard that is). A walk in the fresh air, a trip to a coffee shop...whatever suits you that can take your focus away from the pain. Please keep writing. We are here for you.

thank you so much everyone who has replied it means a lot to me, i do feel a lot better after a sleep though still haven't fully woken up yet, i do feel happier though knowing that a place like this with such warmhearted individuals who understand and arnt there to judge or pry, just listen, and i hope one day i can join your ranks, the reason this spell was so bad was that i felt pretty much fantastic for a whole year, then one day a thought popped into my head, then another and another and before i knew it i was in floods of tears, i genuinely thought i was "cured" if you like, but the worse parts over and i am starting to feel a little more optimistic, and again thank you all who replied, i hope one day i get the chance to repay you all xxxxx

((((((((((((((((( DeepEyes )))))))))))))))))))))

there is no rank here, we are all equal =) and we are here to support each other, glad to know that you are feeling better

hugs
dandelion

haha i ment in the sense that when my mood lifts i will be able to try and help people as you are me, but i understand and its nice to know, i feel humbled already by the shear volume of loving understanding people who suffer from depression too and it gives me hope, i pray one day this darkness will just be a distant memory for all of us and we all find true happiness as i have felt it before and no doubt will again sometime, much love to all xxx

Teehee =)

*hugs*

dandelion

hello deep eyes, i'm finding it hard to write these days as i've been so awful myself but i just wanted to welcome you here and i hope i can be your friend and help you in the future

Lisa (also from England!) x