I Never Thought I Could Get Out of This Dark State

[terrytunes1958]

I am a 51 year old man, who is now a successful entreprenuer, and was someone who battled depression and anxiety in my late twenties to the point where it was destroying my life. I know how devistating it can be, not only you, but your friends and family as well. I have since beat depression and minimized anxiety and I want to share it my story and help as many people cope as possible, because I know personally what a living hell it can be. I am now as I said, 51 years old, married with two grown boys and 2 grandkids and I live a healthy life style, both mentally and physically and look forward to the challenges of daily living, and beating those challenges with no ill effect.
To anyone reading this, never give up. There is hope and hope without medication. Please though, see a Dr., if anything it is always good to talk with someone. You can have your life back. I'm living proof.

[Mich]

It's hard to keep believing that things can actually get better. It's great to hear of your success.

[terrytunes1958]

Hi Mich, when you are in the throw of depression it is extremely hard to visual that there is anything else. I was hospitalized and hit rock bottom so I guess there was only going up from there.
It's hard, but not impossible. I think one of the keys is to take it one day at a time and just try to win small battles each day. You don't feel like eating, force a little something in. You don't feel like exercising, force it, even if it's for 5 minutes, to start it don't seem like much, but you can build on it.
After forcing things for a few days, you start to notice something changing inside you and you want more and you gradually increase your activity to the point you begin to feel you want more. This is when you start to feel hope. It's out there for everyone. You just have to try.

Thanks for the feedback, God Bless,

[dandelion]

hi terrytunes1958, its good to know that there is somebody that managed to get out from depression. I guess the spark of hope is always there and that we can get out from this depression chain or at least be able to control it so that it will not control ourselves. Im happy for you once again

dandelion

[terrytunes1958]

Hi Dandelion, I know sometimes hope doesn't seem like much, because it's all so devastating. Believe me that feeling is inside you. Maybe your not ready to grasp it now, but wait for it, it's there, and when you feel it pounce on it.
I honestly thought my life was over as I knew it. Just a zombie on medication feeling nothing, no hope, no love no, joy, but there was something inside of me, like it is in you that wanted more. That is what you need to nurture. I know it doesn't sound or feel like much now, but you have to build on it, one day at a time until you feel it making a difference, and it will. Not day one, day two, maybe it will take weeks, but you have to know your life is out there waiting for you to take control again.
God I hope you belive me. I hate to think of people out there feeling no hope, that there is no solution. People like I was, medicated to the point that they feel nothing. There is hope. There is more than hope. There are many programs out there that offer relief. Talk to you Doctor and get recomendtions and also search the all natural remedies, but take take action now, and start coping. I wish you all the best,

Terry
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[xn728]

hello terry ,im 51 and im exactly what your not ,ive been depressed since 7 years old ,have a wonderful wife and two lovely grown up girls ,brought up during severe depression but succesfully kept from them ,my life is a living hell ,and i have no respite from it ,a constant level of misery ,
ive always worked but have suffered at the hands of people who cant understand ,im really glad you have won your fight i truly am ,do you know life is electrical ,with positive and negative poles ,you are thankfully
positive full of life and energy ,im the negative ,nothing here ,live well dont waste it ,you deserve it thanks for shareing ,,,,,xn728

[terrytunes1958]

Hi Ken, I'm sorry to hear about your depression. What are you doing to combat it? I hope you have not made a decision to just accept it. It doesn't have to be that way. I certainly never thought I would find a way out. I was to the point I could barely function. I didn't eat, I didn't talk, I was so anxious I thought I was going out of my mind. I was actually.
There is hope, and hope without medication. I am hear to tell you that you can beat it, but you have to make a choice to and get started. I know it feels hard as well to get started, but in the long run it is well worth. My best to you Ken.

Terry
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[xn728]

all those things you mention ,are what i am now ,ive been seeing a phychiartrist for 15 years ,ive had cbt ,i have just told my third support worker not to bother with me again and to give her time to someone who needs or deserves it ,ive had every drug going ,i really am touched by your concern ,my depression is visible to me as a dark cloacked figure ,we walk this earth together ,the reason i dont kill myself ,is the love for my wife and two girl of course ,i know what the future holds for me my freind ,and no matter how hard you may try ,the devil will not give his disiples up ,not for a mortal anyway ,look after yourself my dear freind ,when that thing took me at seven years old ,the path i would walk was set in stone .we were born in the same year terry ,to close for comfort. ,,,thanks again stay safe and well ,,,,,,,,,,,xn728

[terrytunes1958]

I'll be praying for you Ken. Take care of your wonderful family. May God be with you.

Terry
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[xn728]

terry ,i concider you a freind here ,your intentions are good i know ,but please do not pray for me ,or my family ,they have all they need in me ,i have provided well for them ,im sorry but who ever your god may be i do not believe ,i enjoy being deppressed ,ive lived with my freind the visitor for 43 years ,if i were free tommorrow ,i would not be able to cope with a normal life ,if your prayer was answered and i was set free ,the demon inside me would flee and find another poor victim ,this i cannot allow ,we have a pact my freind and me ,it stays with me now ,and it stays with me in death ,so terry no prayers i must insist they cease, there are far more worthy people in here than i that you can pray for ,end them now ,for they will not reach me anyway ,,,,thankyou ,,xn728,,

[terrytunes1958]

Alright Ken, I'll respect your wishes, you can't help someone that doesn't want it.

Terry P.
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[blueisgreen]

If I may say this, Ken said he doesn't want prayers,
but he never said he doesn't want help.
Ken is extremely helpful to everyone on this forum, and he gets his karmic
payback from all of us who appreciate his kind words.
Just because you believe that prayers are helpful, it doesn't mean everybody else agrees with you, or that not wanting prayers means you don't want help
of any kind. There is a difference. You sound quite condescending in your last post to Ken and I think it sucks. Who do you think you are? You are onhere telling everyone
how you have mastered your anxiety - well that's great for you, but you
should not be thinking you are better than anybody else on here who is suffering and seeking empathy. You should reexamine your motives and your words.

[terrytunes1958]

Obviously bluesgreen you misinterpreted my post to Ken. I appreciate him and wish him the best. I'm not here to brag about what accomplishments I have made with depression, I just want to share the info to those who want it. Ken doesn't want it. That's fine. That's all I meant. It can be very hard to feel tone and intention in mere words as is indicated by your response to my post. Take care,

Sincerely,

Terry Poster
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[xn728]

terry ,i did reply to your post originally ,to state how opposite we are ,i was glad you found peace ,all my life i was promised that ,i,we will make you better ,ive done all that was asked of me ,exerciseing ,cbt ,tablets ,many differant doctors ,who gave up before i did ,i was like an anthelete ,looking for that gold ,but after many years of competing in endless events ,and not winning that goal ,im to tired i can compete no more ,doing so is causeing me more pain than i can bear ,i tryed everything for my family ,and i dont feel any shame ,so to say i ddint want help was unfair ive been tossed aside all my life by people who dont understand and it still happens now it seems ,peace should be mine now ,this matter is closed ,if you want to know why i suffer so much i cant be helped ,there lots around here to read about me ,and others .thankyou ,,,,,xn728

[xn728]

will you all open your eyes and see what i have caused once more ,ive upset to many people now ,i came here ,with hope in my heart ,and a wish to do good ,with the only thing i had ,kind words ,but somehow
this happens ,3 people i have touched now ,with my filthy hands ,
there will not be another victim ,,,,,,,,