miss you all ,today ,,g,night

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well everyone it been very quiet on here today ,i know theres a lot of suffering just lately
ive been keeping calm ,and doing things to stay busy ,only i can change my life now ,just small
steps everyday ,work is a little hard as its at a differant location and everything is strange,
i will say a prayer for you all tonight ,ive missed you all,but will look forward to seeing you post soon
,hanging on has had a hard blow dealt ,but will pick himself up ,i know ,so i say ta ta for now my
dear friends ,each and everyone of you i hold close stay safe always,onika hope to see you soon ,
warmie girl shining in the darkness ,goodnight ,,ken

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Hi (((((((((((((((Ken)))))))))))))))) depressed today, I slept off and on most the day, and hope I will still be able to sleep tonight!

Wanted to tell you I am proud of you brother for some of the trends I have been seeing in your posts that you do deserve healing, your debt is paid...it is paid everyday you are a loving husband to Fran, a loving father to your daughters, a loving friend to all of us, the devoted way you care for your ferrets, and that you work hard despite overwhelming illness. You deserve to heal and so do I, and we have to believe healing is possible.

I read your post about the fire. Ken, I did a few really awful things when I was young too, which someday I will post about, just don't want to think too much about stuff now. I regret them, and would do differently today now that I know better and the full consequences of my actions, but I have learned to forgive myself. It is hard, but we must forgive ourselves. We don't need guilt exacerbating the depression.

I know you to be a kind caring supportive person who would go to any lengths to rescue a little abused ferret and is always there for his friends. You are a good person ((((((((((((((((((Ken)))))))))))))))))), my brother. I am glad you are not beating yourself up so much. I am thrilled you made eye contact with people on the street the other day. You are making so much progress, I only hope I can do the same.

With brotherly love and sending thoughts of peace your way...

[Mich]

You are right...small steps every day. It will be hard today but I will try. Sorry I wasn't around yesterday. The family was hovering around me all day and I could not get any private computer time.

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your so kind ,carry on both of you ,you will become stronger ,
dont turn me into some kind of superman ,im not ,we are all the same
stay safe ,on your journeys ,mine will start again tonight ,bless you all
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