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i went out to town today ,yes on my own ,fran was with my youngest girl
so off i went ,not far about 8 miles ,got some stuff we needed .i was worryed about fran ,but i kept going and was ok ,even treated myself to a couple of cds ,it was strange walking amoung the day walkers ,with there
smiles and bags full of happiness,on the way home ,can you feel it ,by the
jackson five came on ,even a rocker like me likes this one ,radio cranked up ,it just seemed to fall into place ,just for an hour ,but i did it ,and you know what ,i looked around and the visitor ,was not with me !
goodnight my freinds and walk tall tommorrow ,i shall wake and feal that awful fear but i will walk through the day and greet the night once more i may cower at the feet of the beast but im not gonna lay down and die
xn728,,,,,ken . I LOVE YOU FRAN SO MUCH AND IF I SHOULD DIE FIRST
I WILL SURROUND YOU ALWAYS ,YOU WILL NOT SEE ME OR HEAR ME ,
NOR WILL YOU SMELL ME ,I LOVE IT WHEN YOU SNIFF MY HEAD ,BUT YOU WILL KNOW IM THERE ,SOMETIMES WHEN I LOOK AT YOU ,I CRY IN SECRET ,YOUR THE REASON I LIVE ,ALL MY LOVE ,,KEN

that has made me so pleased ken that you had your moment of happiness and i think it is beautiful how devoted you are to your wife. goodnight

I am also so happy that you had these moments today.

thanks mich i no your not good today ,keep with it i know it hurts ,feel better soon xn728 ken
when my keys go silent ,you will have what i leave behind

Ken - what do you mean "when your keys go silent"? You have made references to this in other posts and you are scaring me. I look for you here every day and would be devastated if something happened to you.

Yes, I am glad you had a moment of happiness also. Yay!

Glad you were able to do this. And glad you treated yourself for being able to.

sorry mich ,ive had a bad day today fighting with my inner self ,ive had a breackdown once and left the forum for around 4 mnths without saying anything ,i was in self destruct mode today ,i was just laying some foundations for if i went awol ,im fine i sent you a pm xn728 ken
your in trouble today ,i see im sorry it hurts me so much that i cant help everyone ,,,,,,,xn728 ken