Having it all...losing it all

[Little Red Haired Girl]

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I can't thank you enough for sharing your story - and what a story it is! I am not an expert by any means... just a social worker with terrible health anxiety and generalized anxiety disorder, who has battled clinical depression in the past, but it really and truly sounds to me like you were on overload for quite a while, and your poor body and mind just could not take it anymore.

I had a nervous breakdown when I was 21, my red-haired friend. I know how horrible it is, and how it comes out of nowhere. I could not leave my house either - I get that too. I did not have the loooong list of physical ailments that you have, but mentally, I totally get you.

Rest yourself, ok? So glad for you that your husband and children are supportive and understanding about your situation. That's what real love is, I think. When I was going through all of that, I was young, but I had the amazing support of my parents and friends. They are the reason I made it though. Now, although I am much better, anxiety really does get the better of me sometimes... I thank God for my boyfriend who picks me up when I need it, listens to me when I just need to talk, and never makes me feel crazy or bad when my anxiety is at its worst.

As for those church people - ugh. What a shame. I cannot stand when people who claim to be, "good Christians," turn their back on a friend in need. Why do they do that? I mean, Jesus never turned his back on anyone, did he? Where do they get off anyway??? REALLY TICKS ME OFF when these holier than thou folks walk around judging others and never really look in the mirror themselves. SHAME ON THEM - NOT YOU.

So glad you found us... hope to hear from you again soon.