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Do I deserve to live?

I will make this brief, as I know many others experience pain as well, so here it goes -- actions that I made have caused a person that I love to commit suicide. Many other actions of mine were too, indeed, guilty, and have caused people pain -- great pain. I am contemplating whether or not I deserve to live, to be blissful along with the rest of the happy people. Or, instead, I should get it over with and pay the price.

What I am thankful for is a couple of people on this Earth whom I love deeply.

I am hoping to find my purpose, if I'm to go on.

This was my first post.

Hi you deserve to live. I dont know what you did, or think you did to this person. The truth is they made a choice. And unfortunately it wasn't to seek help. As bad as we miss them, as bad as we think we did, it was still their choice. You wouldn't have wished this on them. And even if you said something in anger, you couldn't have expected this. And you wouldn't be being hard on yourself now if you really wanted this out come. Please be kind to yourself. I'm glad you are seeking help.