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I cry all the time lately. Feel rubbish at being a mum, fed up of having nobody to talk to, Mumsnet website full of bitches all competing. I might as well be invisible, who talks to me anyway. I don't think I was ever meant to be here in this life and I don't seem to appear appealing to anyone as a friend, I must have a strange face. I've always thought I'm ugly anyway. I wish my my mum got rid of me when she thought about doing it, somebody better could of taken my place, somebody with a respected voice, aspirations, brilliant career, a good mum. All I am is somebody with a husband who shouts at me alot, fails at being a mother and a cooking cleaning housewife. Why was I ever here?