A poem written by me from my heart

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useranonymous
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A poem written by me from my heart

Postby useranonymous » Sun Apr 25, 2021 4:48 pm

Lonely simpleton

There's often a feeling of loneliness in my heart,
that drives me and the ones closest apart

Everyday the feeling of being a failure brings despair,
some cracks in my mind I feel I can't repair,

Despite how hard I try to be better and not let worries and self pity whir around in my head,
I still have many nights silently crying in bed

Am I actually not good enough
What good deeds have I really done in my whole life
Is there more to me than just trying to be a good little house wife

And always feeling I'm not doing enough and feeling bad about it
I've forgotten who I am and at the end of my whit

The thought my daughter doesn't love me breaks my heart,
As sometimes my anxiety makes it feel me and her are a million miles apart

I know I've tried and had lots of good days with her and can't understand how someone like me,
With the biggest hate and self judgement for myself could ever be loved by anybody

Sometimes I smile and I'm happy but sometimes it's a cover
To not show anybody me and my husband have been arguing with one another

Does God look down on me when my mood and actions are ugly or read what's going on in my head
Or not bother anymore because it's the same things that are always read

But don't get me wrong I'm very grateful for what I have in life,
A beautiful daughter and to my husband I'm a wife

But even though sometimes I am wrong for things I say or do,
Is it right he's so stubborn about things I've supposedly said or done that are just not true

I feel a great surge of unhappiness that tends to come and go,
sometimes I feel he is not friend but foe

But when things are good they are great
And I don't get full of self hate

So why do I feel so alone?
Have I just forgotten what makes me me?
Am I selfish or crazy for feeling this or will this feeling just always be?

Life is a bitch, life is tough, hell it's full of twists and turns,
Full of happy memories, sad memories, loved ones, knocks and scrapes and burns

Maybe one day I'll come to peace and accept and love myself
And I'll accept that it's just a cover to only look after my physical health

Mental health, I'm not perfect. There, I said it.
Id hoped by now my many counsellors would of helped me deal with it

When will I be truly happy in myself and not feel like a feeble mouse,
Sure I've got a lovely family and the house

But true happiness starts with yourself right?
I want to feel really cheerful and bright

I could write forever but I'll leave it there
I've probably already given everyone a scare

Chuck Wood
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Joined: Thu Aug 20, 2020 6:32 pm

Re: A poem written by me from my heart

Postby Chuck Wood » Thu May 06, 2021 6:41 pm

You touched on all the feelings and pains that come to my mind some times. I'll share a poem too...... needs a little work though....


Life, our Brethren


I closely study new life warmed by the new sun.
I hope its birth blossoms in success.
Time presents our possibilities may they come.
Inevitably, there will be a twisted bitterness.
Our peers, selves, prides, and fears,
Remembering proof of our mindlessness.

The wise will think and seek to listen.
Desperate calls for a savior in every mess,
Some choose to hear, for they may be our brethren.
Every thought without question soothes our choice to see.
Our peers, selves, prides, and fears,
Our best beholds all that can be.

Three simple principles dictate our direction.
Face forward, straight forward.
Don’t quit, nor adopt common fabrication…
? integrity and reward.
Our peers, selves, prides, and fears,
Freedom just beyond this horizon, ‘till then we march forward.

Fear of life is a death of new meaning.
The bloodshed here is a given,
For us and others, hope in new beginning.
Never alone in our desire, this awful marriage.
Our peers, selves, prides, and fears,
Eyes will settle on the purest of courage.

We remember proof of our mindlessness.
This test beholds all learned empathy.
Freedom just beyond this horizon, ‘till then we march forward.
Eyes will settle on the purest of courage.

Our peers, selves, prides and fears,
Lessons will soon appear.
Our peers, selves, prides, and fears,
Life ends only in fear.

Life trusts the sun.
Life believes our motivation.
Life follows the spoken.
Life beholds our brethren.


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