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i try to speak positive all the time cause as i soon a become negative about life i tend to become trap into a box and i can’t come out. Persons try to call,text and stuff but i have to pretend that i’m okay. As soon i expressed to them how i feel they ignore me, start comparing and talk about them self or they take me for a joke. I cannot tlk to my family cause they will also take me for a joke and ye i don’t wanna get into that.....
i like advising persons though but no one advice me
sometimes i don’t even want anybody to advice me
sometimes i don’t want attention
sometimes i do
lack motivation for school
i’m the funny and outgoing one out the group so yk i carry everyone.
sometimes i need a break
but i fear losing friends and what will happen to them when i’m not their to guide them
and i’m suicidal
but i’m scared
bad anxiety

hey i’m still here um i’m trying
school is really stressful
environment

I hope you are still hanging on. I am praying for your well-being.

School can really be stressful. Surround yourself with people you can be yourself. It doesn't really matter if you have high grades or whatnot. It's all about the experience and keeping yourself sane.