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.............i am not right mentally at all.....idefk y i feel this way.....its just like one second i'm happy and i love myself the next minute i feel horrible i feel so much pain and i f****** hate myself its.....its so much hurt i cant take it i hate it and i hate myself i hate my life i hate everything....i feel worthless.....i feel like i should just....evaporate into this air.....i f****** hate feeling this way...its like everytime i cry i become more numb.....

The majority of the posts I see here are months old, sorry to reply late. Hope you are doing good now mate.
Life can be like that, one day you're hella motivated to conquer it, the next you just do not feel like getting out of bed. Have you tried any counseling or therapy sessions?

I feel you am the same way but talking to your friends and family about what you feel can help out alot .