22 f
Posted: Sun Dec 13, 2020 4:57 pm
I've felt the same my whole life. I remember being young maybe 8 and wishing I was dead when I got yelled at or in trouble. At 16, I swallowed a whole bottle of advil thinking I would die. Unfortunately, I was just dry heaving for most of the night and my mom just called me stupid and went back to sleep. I'm 22 now and I feel the same. No matter how good things are, I still wish I was dead. I wish I was never alive so I didn't have to feel pain. My mom's poor so money is stressful. Taking care of my brother and sister is stressful. My mom def suffers from some sort of mental illness. My boyfriend is terrible but I can't leave because where will I go? Im unhappy,irritable, anxious and angry. Im so tired and I know i'll always feel this way.