Shopping to take the pain away
Posted: Mon Apr 29, 2019 10:22 pm
My story.. Well if I started from the beginning I would be here for awhile typing.
Things got really bad and I have continued to struggle since September. After I got out of the hospital, I thought that I would do everything different so that I wouldn't end up back there. I would go to the gym, read self-help books, find hobbies, go to support groups, go to counseling, take the meds and all the things they tell you to do to help. After about two months of that, I got exhausted of trying so hard. I went back to my old ways.
Fast forward to this year, I quit my job. Then ran into money issues, so I had to move back home. But even that hasn't really helped me because I have this problem of shopping. I shop to make myself feel better. It doesn't matter what it is, I just want to spend money. Even though I have like no money. My mom is getting on me about my money problems, and she is worried about me. Which I get but I just don't know how to stop.
Don't get me wrong I have a lot of things going well in my life, but I also find myself over eating, sleeping a lot, not wanting to get out of bed, crying over anything.
The ups and downs of depression is what is hard. You can be happy and laughing one minute and then as soon as my bedroom door closes I feel sad, lonely, hopeless, and broken.
Things got really bad and I have continued to struggle since September. After I got out of the hospital, I thought that I would do everything different so that I wouldn't end up back there. I would go to the gym, read self-help books, find hobbies, go to support groups, go to counseling, take the meds and all the things they tell you to do to help. After about two months of that, I got exhausted of trying so hard. I went back to my old ways.
Fast forward to this year, I quit my job. Then ran into money issues, so I had to move back home. But even that hasn't really helped me because I have this problem of shopping. I shop to make myself feel better. It doesn't matter what it is, I just want to spend money. Even though I have like no money. My mom is getting on me about my money problems, and she is worried about me. Which I get but I just don't know how to stop.
Don't get me wrong I have a lot of things going well in my life, but I also find myself over eating, sleeping a lot, not wanting to get out of bed, crying over anything.
The ups and downs of depression is what is hard. You can be happy and laughing one minute and then as soon as my bedroom door closes I feel sad, lonely, hopeless, and broken.