Feeling hopeless
Posted: Tue May 02, 2017 2:47 am
I don't know what to feel right now. I'm just so fed up with life and how it's been treating me. Everyday is an emotional one.
Started new job and it's already stressing me out. I have to put on a fake smile and face everytime I serve someone. I just get really annoyed cuz that's not who I am. I'm always getting feedback with my performance and it's just making me feel even more hopefulness with everything.
Outside of work I got problems in myself I..e depression and anxiety. I usually keep myself to myself which I've always done but when I feel really down and wanna talk to someone they are never there to talk to. Again feel more hopefulness. I tried telling this guy I'm seeing I'm depressed but all he's done is say he don't wanna hear it and if I'm gonna keep talking to him like that then we should stop talking. Is that even helpful? He's a nice guy despite what he said but it goes to show some people really don't understand what depression is like. They never had to go through it.
So again I'm constantly going about my day as stupid as it sounds but I got no choice.
Just gonna have to keep pretending I'm ok to everyone as that's what people want right?
Thanks for reading.
Started new job and it's already stressing me out. I have to put on a fake smile and face everytime I serve someone. I just get really annoyed cuz that's not who I am. I'm always getting feedback with my performance and it's just making me feel even more hopefulness with everything.
Outside of work I got problems in myself I..e depression and anxiety. I usually keep myself to myself which I've always done but when I feel really down and wanna talk to someone they are never there to talk to. Again feel more hopefulness. I tried telling this guy I'm seeing I'm depressed but all he's done is say he don't wanna hear it and if I'm gonna keep talking to him like that then we should stop talking. Is that even helpful? He's a nice guy despite what he said but it goes to show some people really don't understand what depression is like. They never had to go through it.
So again I'm constantly going about my day as stupid as it sounds but I got no choice.
Just gonna have to keep pretending I'm ok to everyone as that's what people want right?
Thanks for reading.