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Just looking for some support. I'm really struggling to cope. I'm really hurting and I don't know where to go from here. I am only 30 years old but was in a 14 year abusive relationship. Mental.. emotional... sexual ... physical .. financial ... I managed to leave about 1.5 year ago but the effects seem to worsen with time as I'd blocked out a lot of past memories. I am now 7 months pregnant with a new partner and I thought he was my world but now I'm seeing things that I didn't see in the beginning. He is not abusive at all but I have uncovered a lot of lying and there's a lot of promises which are never met. I've also let myself down by doing stupid stuff. I feel lost and alone but am ttrying to be strong for my baby. I think he has a sex addiction problem and I really can't stand been hurt anymore. I don't deserve it. Please someone send me some love and some advice. I'm scared of myself and my dark thoughts

Hi I'm sorry to hear about your past abusive relationship, abusive relationships can have so many negative effects on a person, but you will overcome it and you will be a stronger person because of it, as far as your current relationship , you said he's been doing a lot of lying ? And has made promises that he doesn't come through on? Could you please expand on that? You are not alone and you'll get through this , and I'll be here to listen and help along the way

Also you are unhappy with who you are? How are you unhappy with yourself?