What did I do to deserve this?!?!
Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2016 1:11 am
I must have done something horrible in another life. I am not as strong as I pretend to be. Not anymore.
6 months ago I was on cloud 9 with a beautiful baby boy to love and cherish, shortly after a week and 2 very short visits to the emergency department I was left holding my dead son with no explanations besides no one noticed a heart condition.
I cry everyday, I have been loosing my hair in huge chunks, can't get the weight off, and when I close my eyes at night I see him on the stretcher with all the tubes and wires turning purple while they preform CPR
I feel so low and so lost.
Yesterday while preparing for another sleepless night I received a message from someone I didn't know. She explained how sorry she was because she has been sleeping with my husband for the past year and just recently found out that he's not actually separated like he told her. Shared great details of their scandal, even pictures. My eyes can never unsee these things. 7 years wasted. His explanation? ... It didn't mean anything to him.
Today as my heart is breaking and still trying to figure things out I received a registered letter in the mail. I was expecting it to be the coroners results I have been waiting for...
Instead they are court papers. We have put our selves in such financial troubles we are being sued.
I have no idea how to get out of this. No idea what I did to deserve this. I am probably going to loose everything I have worked my ass off to have and at the end of the day al I will have left is my daughter who constantly asks to go to the doctors too and a tiny box with what is left of my perfect little family.
It's 1 am and there is no sign of sleep tonight.
6 months ago I was on cloud 9 with a beautiful baby boy to love and cherish, shortly after a week and 2 very short visits to the emergency department I was left holding my dead son with no explanations besides no one noticed a heart condition.
I cry everyday, I have been loosing my hair in huge chunks, can't get the weight off, and when I close my eyes at night I see him on the stretcher with all the tubes and wires turning purple while they preform CPR
I feel so low and so lost.
Yesterday while preparing for another sleepless night I received a message from someone I didn't know. She explained how sorry she was because she has been sleeping with my husband for the past year and just recently found out that he's not actually separated like he told her. Shared great details of their scandal, even pictures. My eyes can never unsee these things. 7 years wasted. His explanation? ... It didn't mean anything to him.
Today as my heart is breaking and still trying to figure things out I received a registered letter in the mail. I was expecting it to be the coroners results I have been waiting for...
Instead they are court papers. We have put our selves in such financial troubles we are being sued.
I have no idea how to get out of this. No idea what I did to deserve this. I am probably going to loose everything I have worked my ass off to have and at the end of the day al I will have left is my daughter who constantly asks to go to the doctors too and a tiny box with what is left of my perfect little family.
It's 1 am and there is no sign of sleep tonight.