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Hello and thank you in advance for reading this words i´m writing.

My name is Ivan, im 25 years old, and i am from Argentina. I came across this page today, and i felt that maybe this community could give me some advice.
Im currently studying at a medical school in Buenos Aires going through my 5th year in the carreer; the thing is that i have this feeling of guilt, sometimes so bad that it makes me cry and i could almost feel the pain in my chest which makes me think that im not worthy of anything good happening to me, and that death could be and option actually; my mother was always and advocate for good education, so she sent me to one of the best Medical Schools in the country which is very very Expensive considering that i come from a middle class family. since i began studying, seeing my mother struggle every month to pay for the monthly fee just kills me inside, because I KNOW that without that expense life would be so much easier, being a medical career i cant take any part time jobs so the only thing i could do was to ask for a Loan with the university. I know that maybe my problems are nearly not as big as other people´s but im feeling so sad and depressed that i cant see any solution to all of this.

Ask your mother what she thinks of the loan.

Maybe she views her investment in you like an annuity. Once you have your medical degree you will always be able to work, and the work you choose will enable you to give money back to your mother.

It is her choice, and what you can currently give is limited by your circumstances, but your circumstances seem promising. Find ways to express your gratitude now, and tell your mother that even better is on its way.