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I have been trying the whole online depression chat rooms and here and it has given me help in a way but also it has given me questions and more fears . everything I do is for my family I want so bad to get better for them . but as a recovering addict I am scared to see a doctor and could not afford it if I didn't think it was a bad idea to give me anything that Ayers my mind before I truly try everything to work through it and heal

The WILL to change comes from within. The KNOWLEDGE of how to change comes from others. Ask for help from people who have been there and know. You may be able to cure yourself ... but that is not the choice that has worked for most (I would even say ANY) of us here.

Whatever you do, try asking medical assistance. It is the first step to your recovery.