So much on my plate all the time
Posted: Wed Nov 25, 2015 2:57 am
I have had severe depression for many years along with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It has only recently been discovered that I have an underlying condition which has most likely been the root of the problem. It could be a condition called Congenital Adrenal Hyperplasia. It might be also something to do with my Pituitary Gland - under investigation. Finally detected after four decades! But NO! I am not allowed to be angry!
I have so much anger! Throughout the years I haven't been able to work because of various medical conditions and this has impacted a great deal on my quality of life. I haven't been able to support myself. The Doctors I have seen have been clueless and so have so many Counsellors. They truly have had no idea, just how bad it is been for me despite me trying to take my own life about three times.
I just can't seem to catch a break in this life. I lost my Mum four years ago to Breast Cancer, My Father is a Viet Vet and recently had a heart attack and stroke. My only Brother could care less, only interested in himself, BF has an Cognitive/Intellectual disability and does not understand, he is also sick most of the time. He has a heart issue (Mechanical Valve, Pacemaker) and he is only 37! Just months ago had to euthanize my cat and two weeks ago, my dog was diagnosed with a Breast Sarcoma.
As soon as I was in in my teens I was looking after the family and now I am still looking after everyone while no one gives a damn about me. I am always the "go to person" and I am over it.
I can't enjoy anything because everyone's needs seem to be so much more important than mine. They say they love me but I think they are full of crap.
If it wasn't for my fur kids...
I have so much anger! Throughout the years I haven't been able to work because of various medical conditions and this has impacted a great deal on my quality of life. I haven't been able to support myself. The Doctors I have seen have been clueless and so have so many Counsellors. They truly have had no idea, just how bad it is been for me despite me trying to take my own life about three times.
I just can't seem to catch a break in this life. I lost my Mum four years ago to Breast Cancer, My Father is a Viet Vet and recently had a heart attack and stroke. My only Brother could care less, only interested in himself, BF has an Cognitive/Intellectual disability and does not understand, he is also sick most of the time. He has a heart issue (Mechanical Valve, Pacemaker) and he is only 37! Just months ago had to euthanize my cat and two weeks ago, my dog was diagnosed with a Breast Sarcoma.
As soon as I was in in my teens I was looking after the family and now I am still looking after everyone while no one gives a damn about me. I am always the "go to person" and I am over it.
I can't enjoy anything because everyone's needs seem to be so much more important than mine. They say they love me but I think they are full of crap.
If it wasn't for my fur kids...