Hostile Woman

[porcupine]

I had to go to the shops yesterday. I can tell the woman in there is quite hostile towards me. It wasn't so much what she said or did. It was a vibe.

I think what it could be is she has a rocky relationship with her boyfriend. I've heard various things about it. One of the things I've heard is he is seeing another woman. The woman in the shop seems quite bitter.

I think the boyfriend may be using me to make her jealous. I have hardly spoken to him, but he has seemed friendlier lately.

I don't want to be dragged into people's dramas. This is not where I'm at in my life. I'm not interested in stealing her boyfriend. I don't trust him and I don't want a relationship. I'm just waiting to die. Why can't they piss off?

I suppose they don't know what's going on with me, and there's no point explaining. It's none of their business anyway. I don't belong in the world, and I hate that I'm alive.

I have to do shopping again soon and I'm dreading it. I will have to go there. Why is life so hard?