Abandonment
Posted: Tue Jul 07, 2015 3:21 pm
My brother still hasn't come home. I'm a nervous wreck. I know I'm an adult, but I can't stand this sense of abandonment. I feel like I'm outcast and been left to rot. I can't turn to anyone in the outside world, as I just get preyed on.
I'm so tired of this. I see the world around me and I don't belong. I do nothing about it. Nothing drastic anyway. I haven't got the courage to commit suicide. I need to do something major, but I don't know what.
I thought I could be happy last year when I met someone, but he messed me about, standing me up and various mind games. He had a side to him that hated women, because his ex-wife cheated on him. It's not my fault, but he took it out on me. I can't face going out with anyone now, but the loneliness is horrible. I'm between a rock and a hard place. What kind of Hell is this?
I'm so tired of this. I see the world around me and I don't belong. I do nothing about it. Nothing drastic anyway. I haven't got the courage to commit suicide. I need to do something major, but I don't know what.
I thought I could be happy last year when I met someone, but he messed me about, standing me up and various mind games. He had a side to him that hated women, because his ex-wife cheated on him. It's not my fault, but he took it out on me. I can't face going out with anyone now, but the loneliness is horrible. I'm between a rock and a hard place. What kind of Hell is this?