Depression Understood Forums

Hi i'm a 18 year old 5'0 male who is depressed. I have dealt with depression for years a but i have always kept a brave face for everybody else around me. My depression leaves me in a state where i don't believe i matter to anyone as i feel i get treated differently just because of my height. It's gotten so bad that my depression sometimes to me being agressive just so i could mask how depressed and sad and lonely i feel all the time. I want to talk to people who go through the same as me and hopefully give me advice on how to deal with it.