Deep into the abyss everyday.
Posted: Wed Jan 07, 2015 7:59 am
I can't help but feel lifeless and can't cope with anything in this life. My narcissistic mother has ruined my life and I don't think I can ever be normal in this is life. I'm going to write here some of the thing she did recently that can't help me move on..
She cooks with dairy products all the time and I'm lactose intolerant - so I cook separately for me all the time, Tells everyone that I'm gay and she tells me that she doesn't tell anyone then people tell me they heard from her, she thinks everything is about her, when my girlfriend asks how my childhood was to her she's always saying how my brother was the cutest one, tells everyone i'm lazy and without a job even tho I do the weekly grocery shopping, cook everyday, clean and laundry (only my stuff because she thinks i'm incapable), argue with every restaurant we go, recently I was sick and told me to choke and die while I was coughing, never told me she loved me or hugged me, can't have my privacy in my room and goes thru all my wardrobes, papers and stuff, physical abuse, she's obsessed about plastic surgery and says she's still perfect without them, when i was thin she used to tell me that i'm really skinny and ugly now that i gained weight she walks past me and tells me i'm really fat, always boasting how she looks good in every dress because she's thin and perfect not like me, went for a holiday with my dad & they didn't even text if they arrived or how am i doing for days, when i'm laughing shes always sighing etc....
It's really difficult living like this and I can't take it anymore.. anyone here is going thru the same ? Thanks for reading....
She cooks with dairy products all the time and I'm lactose intolerant - so I cook separately for me all the time, Tells everyone that I'm gay and she tells me that she doesn't tell anyone then people tell me they heard from her, she thinks everything is about her, when my girlfriend asks how my childhood was to her she's always saying how my brother was the cutest one, tells everyone i'm lazy and without a job even tho I do the weekly grocery shopping, cook everyday, clean and laundry (only my stuff because she thinks i'm incapable), argue with every restaurant we go, recently I was sick and told me to choke and die while I was coughing, never told me she loved me or hugged me, can't have my privacy in my room and goes thru all my wardrobes, papers and stuff, physical abuse, she's obsessed about plastic surgery and says she's still perfect without them, when i was thin she used to tell me that i'm really skinny and ugly now that i gained weight she walks past me and tells me i'm really fat, always boasting how she looks good in every dress because she's thin and perfect not like me, went for a holiday with my dad & they didn't even text if they arrived or how am i doing for days, when i'm laughing shes always sighing etc....
It's really difficult living like this and I can't take it anymore.. anyone here is going thru the same ? Thanks for reading....