My Dilema
Posted: Fri Dec 12, 2014 12:09 am
I am 42 and have been depressed for over 30 years!
I would.t understand what it was initially. Thinking back, I remember I never had enough sleep back in those days when I was in primary school. I would go into a deep slumber each day after returning from school, waking up feeling un-rested and unhappy.
It was always difficult getting up in the morning either but all these were explained-off as sign of laziness. The symptom never stopped and I just accept them as normal.
I later went on to do very well (academically) in highschool, "A" levels and got my first degree. Been working professionally since 1998 but I never could go for a day at work without the need to sleep. so much so that I had to look for a nice spot in a nearby park to nab for an hour during lunch rather than lunching.
If I have felt like this for this long is it unreasonable to think this is how I will feel for my entire life on earth? I have 3 lovely kids and a wife that should be giving me non-stop happiness but I just cant seem to be happy!!
I am currently on a daily dose of Pristiq (50mg) + Sodium valproate (200mg) and although I feel fed-up about life, I don't feel actively suicidal.
I just stumbled across this forum and I thought I should say something about myself and see maybe someone in similar dilemma can share their coping experience with me?
I would.t understand what it was initially. Thinking back, I remember I never had enough sleep back in those days when I was in primary school. I would go into a deep slumber each day after returning from school, waking up feeling un-rested and unhappy.
It was always difficult getting up in the morning either but all these were explained-off as sign of laziness. The symptom never stopped and I just accept them as normal.
I later went on to do very well (academically) in highschool, "A" levels and got my first degree. Been working professionally since 1998 but I never could go for a day at work without the need to sleep. so much so that I had to look for a nice spot in a nearby park to nab for an hour during lunch rather than lunching.
If I have felt like this for this long is it unreasonable to think this is how I will feel for my entire life on earth? I have 3 lovely kids and a wife that should be giving me non-stop happiness but I just cant seem to be happy!!
I am currently on a daily dose of Pristiq (50mg) + Sodium valproate (200mg) and although I feel fed-up about life, I don't feel actively suicidal.
I just stumbled across this forum and I thought I should say something about myself and see maybe someone in similar dilemma can share their coping experience with me?