Depression Understood Forums

And right from the start, I'll tell you why;

Because I will feel less "alone/lonely" stomping up a mountain somewhere, completely by myself (as always), than I would to sit in a house, with 2 or 3 couples (including my long time best friend, and his GF) doing the whole TG social thing....
In fact, the "only" time I don't feel alone / lonely, is when I am by myself, stomping up a mountain, and 1 second away from passing out from exhaustion. Just takes too much concentration, to worry about anything else.

Also, my normal days off are Mon and Tues. However, my work decided to make me work Mon, since I get Thurs off for TG

Well I normally get all my chores / errands done the first of my two days off, so I can play the next.

Instead, this week, I will have to get everything done Tues, work Weds, then get to go play on TG.....

I'll probably say something to the boss like, "Thanks boss. That gave me a good excuse to skip TG"..... He's going to trip on this, as he's all into the holidays, and has a wife, family, etc, to share all of that stuff with, so he's going to think I'm crazy. But then again, he's another one of those people that will NEVER know what its like to be lonely / alone......

Update;

So all day long, I was dreading having to call my long time best friend to tell him I was canceling on TG.....

But I finally did last evening, and he totally understood.

Like I told him, I am just sure I will be "less lonely" while pushing myself to the limit physically speaking, than I would to try to "sit around, relax, and be happy with friends"

BTW, my best friend had been single his entire life, to the age of 50 (a lot to do with his weight problems) and then met the woman of his life going on 2yrs ago.... and has been living with her ever since. I'm really happy for him.

So, I sure can't say he doesn't know how I feel..... after "only" 18 yrs of being by myself...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Anyway, still have a little guilt about skipping TG, but plan to really stomp my legs off, climbing a new to me, BIG mountain. I hear its brutal steep. Should be a fantastic distraction from my POS life.......

I wish I had, and I'm currently making plans to cut Easter.

Hey Rider, well I know this is a totally personal thing. So if that's whats best for you, then by all means....

As much as I love my friends, this was the right decision for me.

I actually called my best friend from the top of the mountain, to wish them a happy TG, and we had a nice talk.

Here was the best shot of the trip {IMPO}

I wish I could do framing like that.

You have a great eye.