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My heart is breaking and yet, what else is new? But recently I have become unhinged and normally I am very shy and withdrawn. I feel like I am losing control and like the pressure cooker my self control is rapidly evaporating. I do not know what to do.

I don't want to drag out my history, it's 50 years of holding in many things. I do not engage in social media and the one girlfriend I have known for thirty plus years, I texted her and told her I am basically done with her. My trusted friend who I suspect slept with my husband 25 years ago and recently slept with my son. I feel so betrayed and made of fool of.

Maybe this is the first step in healing. I know what it's like to bottle up your emotions for far too long, seeming to have it all together for so many years only to come unraveled and have no one to talk to about it. My BFF for 40+ years doesn't want to hear about it and tells me to do something about it and stop just talking about it. Talking is how I heal. Writing it down. Putting all of the ugliness out there. Exposing myself instead of keeping hidden.

No one will know what you're going through or how it feels to be YOU in this situation, but many of us have been through something similar and can offer a willing, non-judgmental ear when you're ready to put it all out there.

Hang on, help is coming.