Depression Understood Forums

Thought i start here since New to forum.

I don't really know where to start and don't wanna leave a really long boring page of writing so will cut it short, basically i suffer with depression,severe anxiety, agraphobia, maobsessive thoughts and suicidal thoughts.
Over last couple years its gotten to the point where i can no longer leave my house my main issue is my appearance. I just Cant accept my appearance in fact i am severely ashamed of it..by appearance i mean my face i feel i look a monster and feel nobody should have to look at me, i lost my job because Im too ashamed to step out the door and now i have lost my social life completely! This May sound stupid but its something i Cant overcome. My depression tho has been for years due to my upbringing , i had a hard childhood and rejection too i blame myself for everything!
I have come here to find people i can actually talk to and mostly relate to because i Cant talk to anyone else i have no friends and no girlfriend because i Cant ever leave my prison . Please feel free to talk i could do with it!

I am dealing with a lot of your syndromes. I am in my bed most of the time. Come to the chat room, and there are always people to talk to there.

I am sorry for what you're going through. However, I do feel that you need to find a way to love yourself more. From experience I can tell you that depression seems to find a way to always bring the one person that you need to take care of most down and that person is yourself.