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I am a stay at home who recently experienced an anxiety attack. I have always enjoyed being at my home with my kids, but have recently got the feeling as if I no longer want to live. I have always been a goal getter and for the past 6 years I have put my aspirations aside.

I feel anger because I allowed my fiance (who I wonder when I'll ever have a wedding) to continue his career. I would be able to work, but then find myself having to quit because the schedule of the kids or mine did not work. Quitting never made me feel good.

I felt this depression come on when I really was pushing to let people know about the reasons they should oppose the Keystone Pipeline and it hit me that no one really cares. That right there I think made my downward spiral begin. I realized that everyone are sheep and just love to complain. I felt that I needed to do more than just be at a stay at home mom. I guess I have a case of the mommy blues. I have my good and bad days, but I guess really I am here to vent and see if there is anyone I can relate to and vent to. I don't have friends who really care.

I do talk with others, but it's like they don't really want to hear what I have to say or don't know what to say. I usually feel like I'm talking to a wall. Friends I have need money to do things enjoyable or need to drink to have a good time. I pretty much feel alone. I feel like my aspirations are one of a kind and can't find an outlet. I feel stuck.

OK, first I want to say that I just joined this forum 2 days ago...havent even posted a self-intro yet BUT wanted to reply to you.

After reading your note a couple things stood out......yes, people seem to be sheep and it seems like they dont care about what may be important to you at any given moment....but most of them actually do care. Just that they are having their own issues. I came out of the grocery store yesterday and this girl comes up with her clipboard and starts talking about surface mining and how damaging it is. Now I know how damaging it is BUT my feet were killing me (I have peripheral neuropathy and just putting one foot in front of the other some days is a major challenge) so I let her know I couldnt talk right then, I would catch her later. I didnt waste time trying to figure out what she thought about my response.

I guess what Im trying to say is why do you let it bother you so much what people think....if the cause means that much to you you should fight for it no matter what. I think thats why you feel stuck.....cause you are stuck. If taking care of your kids and trying to work outside the home isnt a fit then find or create an at-home job that does fit

I dont have any kids, and Im not married so I dont really know how tuff your life is. All I know is in order for you to move forward you have to do the moving. Maybe try to start a non-profit company that supports something you are passionate about.

Im not trying to be mean....and who knows, this post may get me kicked off of this site, LOL.....but you seem like you've got alot to move forward with.

Hugs,

Laurie

I just sign in today because I too have the same problems as you are too. I am here to seek for advice as well. I feel that you can have something in common with me. I am a stay at home mom. Been out of my job for over 3 years now to care for my little ones. Being a stay a home mom had really taking a toe on me this last few months. I started to feel depressed and I feel as if I need to get back to work or I will go crazy. I have done so much for everyone around me but I do not feel at a appreciated by anyone. I am at the point where I want to give up help others. Since I am not working anymore, everyone else thinks that since I am not working anymore, they all can just expect me to help them. Well I stay home for a reason - I had no one to help me with my kids. But now everyone else expect me to help them. Sometimes instead of asking me people tends to just expect that I will do it for them. And sometimes a no I can't do it does not work for them so I feel as if I have to help them even if I have all this other things to do. I have to put my life on hold just to help others. And I am just so tiered of it now.