What can I EVER do??

[4EverMe]

Inside feels like the bottomless abyss-
Feeling as though I don't matter,
But knowing who it is
I truly appear before.

Appearance? It is my mind.
It is my heart. It is my soul.
It is 'myself,' whom some, here,
truly know.

It is good to be loved,
But better it is to love...
Precisely why this pain
Stabs worse!

How can I be of help?
How do I shine my light?
Am told how much I help...
But invisible is my "light."

It's like facing what's impossible
To force this blind one to see:
Yes, I am your friend,
But am unable to MAKE you see.

To help you find your way,
I'll do my best to guide you,
If I'm doing nothing for you?
Be kind.
Care enough to say that's true.

There are times when I could use
Some truth, and mercy
too.

[CrazyLady17]

YOU DO matter okay?
You matter to me. You matter to everyone on here.
We all care about you.
You are special to me, and always will be.

Always here for you.

Remember what I told you;
You are a mother figure to me, and you are amazing the way you are. Never forget that.

PM anytime even if it's to vent out

Stay strong lovely.
Love ya.
(((Hugs)))

[4EverMe]

Thank you, for the nice words, Abbie,
Maybe, I just need to truly vent. I usually try to stay clear of the Woe, is Me attitude, even when I am very much in pain.

This site is for revealing our hurt. I'm just used to masking general depressive grief, unless I can bring up something specific that has my life in shambles.
However, as it stands, there is no 'Hurricane Katrina' hovering above my world right now.
But, I can't adequately convey just how bad a storm is gusting throughout my core.
Feels as though I'm being ripped apart from the inside out!!

If anyone were to physically run to me? It would probably be a guy who wants the remaining part of me. (??) Who else...The pity party, (me)?
Aside from some who're too are too far away too hold, and God, I don't have anyone.

I just can't comprehend why this all has to hit ME SO mercilessly, right now. This is unbelievably crazy

[CrazyLady17]

You are very welcome anytime
Yes exactly. Then vent out lovely! Okay? Don't be afraid to vent okay?
Vent to me on PM anytime okay?

No worries on the kind words, am just telling the truth here! You mean the world to me and hate seeing you like this to be honest

Remember what you told me?
God is watching over us and making sure we are okay, pray to god and ask him for some heal in your pain. Yes?
I'll pray with you and take it every step of the way with you.

I know how you feel believe me, as I feel the same way you do right now.
Together we can fight this. Promise.

Just believe in yourself and in god.

(((Hugs)))