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I have been living with depression since about the age of 10. I functioned, got decent grades in school, completed two degrees, continuously hold down jobs, got married, and am very active in my church.

I am 34 now, and i recall most of my life feeling very unhappy, no matter how active and functioning I am.

I have taken medications, I have tried therapy.

Most of all, my depression makes me so tired all of the time.

I had to come home from work early today because all of a sudden I had a sad spell wash over me unprovoked and couldnt do one thing more.

I am so very exhausted and I wish I were different sometimes!

Hello, InMyEyes,
How have you been the past couple of days? I hope you're feeling any better.
You mentioned that you've tried medication and therapy. Did anything work for you? In my case, it took three or four attempts, before finding something that worked! Could it be that you just haven't discovered yet what works for you?

I also didn't feel that meds were much help. In the end finding out to main trigger was a big help but is still struggle after 15 years. I took up a suggestion from a former counsellor that I needed to express my depression in the physical world and In doing do metaphorically transferred it from my mind to, in my case, the page in the form of poetry. A form of purging in that I trapped my black dog on the page in words.
I onus it very helpful, though I still won't let anyone read my darker writings.