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Well im 16 and have never really had a happy life I grew up with my parents together untill I was 7 from gambling, it went downhill from there he came in and out of my life for years untill I was tenish he stuck around more, we were bestfriends I was a proper daddys girl we had so much in common and he helped me believe in my self until he died 3 months ago. . I feel emotionless now I feel like nothing. He had alcoholism im not sure if he killed himself or what. . But yeah, he was only 36.
Im scared my uncle will do the same he's a heavy alcoholic hes 28 and is constantly ill and suicidal, my dad was also sucidal for months. During my gcses I sat up talking him oit of it, sat up all night as he screamed for help.
My uncle is insane hr screams for help outside the mental hospital, alcohol ruined them both my dad was the happiest guy ever my uncle like me is very passinate about music, he could of went far.
When I was 14 I was depressed alot because my mums boyfriend made me feelworthless and made me leave home my dad took me in he was going to aa then and was very happy .also happy to have me there.. that guy was also having a double life with my mum he actually had a wife and kids.. my mum took him back it broke my heart.
My brother whos 18 is left with alot of anger and it kills me. alot more has happened im not comfortable sharing yet I just want help I dont really want to live anymore
16 and I dont know what to do anymore (Triggering Material)
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Hello flonug,
I responded above to this post, but I just wanted to add something. You're brother is angry inside, and he'll need you. Live for those you love who have also been so hurt by all of this. He may not be opening up, right now. But he will need someone who's suffering like you two are. Even if you both aren't that close, who knows what the future has in store?! And how would it make him feel if his sister ends her life? This could push him over the edge!
No matter how harsh and painful thing are now, I have a feeling that in time, your life will improve some. Prayers are with you!
I responded above to this post, but I just wanted to add something. You're brother is angry inside, and he'll need you. Live for those you love who have also been so hurt by all of this. He may not be opening up, right now. But he will need someone who's suffering like you two are. Even if you both aren't that close, who knows what the future has in store?! And how would it make him feel if his sister ends her life? This could push him over the edge!
No matter how harsh and painful thing are now, I have a feeling that in time, your life will improve some. Prayers are with you!
Thankyou very much for the reply . I try very hard for my family and me and my mum have got closer. My dads family doesn't speak to me anymore of want to see me and I dont know why 
I was sitting ny gcses if your not from britian/ireland this is where you do exams to try and get into colleges you want.. and I only passed two my dad died on my naths exam and I couldnt sit it also I was talking him out of suicide ehilst he screamed for help and didnt sleep. I feel everyones looking down on me for failing 4 of them but I tried ny best. I got my art which im happy for Im not good at alot and ny dad really madr me feel I was in art and wanted me to persue it. Xx
I was sitting ny gcses if your not from britian/ireland this is where you do exams to try and get into colleges you want.. and I only passed two my dad died on my naths exam and I couldnt sit it also I was talking him out of suicide ehilst he screamed for help and didnt sleep. I feel everyones looking down on me for failing 4 of them but I tried ny best. I got my art which im happy for Im not good at alot and ny dad really madr me feel I was in art and wanted me to persue it. XxHi flonug,
No problem. To know that you and your mom have grown closer, brings me comfort-- comfort for YOU It's great you have some solace, and a bond with one you can count on.
Please don't carry around guilt and regret, for things you had no control over! It wasn't your fault. As you said, you did your best...Isn't that all a person can do? Anyone who holds any blame/grudge? That's their problem-- not yours to wallow in! Perhaps, they need some sort of outlet for their grief. I don't know. Always remember the sweet, encouraging words your father spoke to you. When things get rough in school, fall back upon those words. Also, it's great you have your art! Hobbies DO help; I know! Keep up your good work, flonug.
No problem. To know that you and your mom have grown closer, brings me comfort-- comfort for YOU It's great you have some solace, and a bond with one you can count on.
Please don't carry around guilt and regret, for things you had no control over! It wasn't your fault. As you said, you did your best...Isn't that all a person can do? Anyone who holds any blame/grudge? That's their problem-- not yours to wallow in! Perhaps, they need some sort of outlet for their grief. I don't know. Always remember the sweet, encouraging words your father spoke to you. When things get rough in school, fall back upon those words. Also, it's great you have your art! Hobbies DO help; I know! Keep up your good work, flonug.
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