nothing passioniate , I promise

[sleepingpillwall]

My story is bleek and sterotypical of a person suffering from depression. My entire childhood, was filled with drugs and violence. Thus , manifesting itself into a bleek, nothingless mind set. Making the idea of happiness, seem...unrealistic. Continued negitive moods, only instilled these belifes deeper, into my adulthood. Ive pretended to cope, to blend in with my peers but, my half assed attempts at it, have only made me feel more distant. Yeah, I think about death. I sometimes wish for it. Could i do it myself? Well, I have not been sucessful this far. To be honest I lack the passion for life, as I do death. Therefore making it difficult to suceed in either one. I dont have many friends, mostly because I prefer my time to be spent by myself. Ive said nothing of intrerest in this post, i am not even sure why i am sharing. If you managed to read my entire post, thank you for your time. Candy

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Hi Candy. Thanks for posting and sharing.

You are not the only one who feels like that. I spend much of my life indifferent to most things, as nothing much seems to make a difference to anything and I feel largely irrelevant.

Make time for yourself and. if you can, try to find something to do that you enjoy and gives you satisfaction. Try to love and be kind to yourself, however hard that may be.

Please post again if you can and tell us more.