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A little overview for you; I am an athlete and have always been since the age of 8. This sport gradually began taking over my life and by the age of 12 I left traditional school and began online school. For the former part of my athletic journey I was happy and really loved the sport. Even though I attended online school I had many friends, a lot in fact, but I began getting injured all the time. I was out of the game constantly and lost contact with many friends. I was out of the world of my sport. The only friends I had were the kids I trained with. At 14 I had my very first boyfriend and that lasted about a year and a half, which made me very happy. I then had another boyfriend for about 6 months, he then moved abruptly and I never saw him again. From there I started losing everybody. My two other best friends moved and I found myself very lonely. Now at 16 going on 17 I see everyone moving on with their life and prospering while I'm injured. I have been out for 6 months with a hip injury and I found out today I need surgery and will be out another 6 months. I am going to be a senior and this is prime recruiting time for college sports. Missing this time is devastating to my future. The reason why I started online school was so I can get this scholarship. I know everything will end up fine in the long run but I am so lonely and so sad and I just want a friend who will try to understand how sad I am. Not someone who just says "oh everything will work out don't worry!!!" No, I want someone who can help me through the sadness. I feel like I have up my whole childhood for a dream that is ruined by an injury. I always said to myself that it was worth it because I will conquer my goal, but now that goal is ruined. Honestly, my only friend is my coach but I can't talk to him about This. I just want to feel better, someone my age should be happy, and I'm not. I will continue playing my sport after I recover from surgery and will try to salvage some type of scholarship. So anyone who mentions quitting should not do so. This sport is my life, at this age I have no choice. Thank you for whatever words you have to say.

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powerful story. I can imagine what people tell you, basic empty comforting words. I deal with depression by acceptance. I don't know if it is helpful.

This must be really hard. Life has so many unexpected turns and just as many bumps and falls (literally!) Pain can be so lonely, especially seeing as though you've really done your best to make friends. It doesn't sound like you've just let life take you over, it sounds like you are really trying to help yourself.
Someone once told me this when i was 15, and i still keep it close to my heart-
Only dead fish go with the current, alive fish swim against it.
Remember, adversity makes you a stronger person. Now the teams want the young/strong etc. but there always is a need in any team for someone who is a coper, who won't fall to bits when something goes wrong- and living through what you are living through makes you into a coper. Call it the School of Life!
GOOD LUCK!