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I am a 34y.o single mother of a 12y.o beautiful daughter. I disowned my parents about a month ago because they will never respect me as the person that I am and nothing I do will ever be good enough. I thought I would feel better after I told them that I wanted nothing more to do with them but I find myself hurting really bad. I am the second oldest of 4 daughters and 1 brother and growing up I was mentally, emotionally, verbally and physically abused from a very young age up until the age of 12 when I was finally taken and placed into a foster home and passed around until I was 16. I have tolerated very abusive relationships where I have been abused in every way cause I never felt worthy and just did not know how to be in or maintain a relationship so I have been single for the past 9 years. I have never sought to sort out my head because I thought that I was strong enough to deal with everything myself but it has just festered inside me all these years and is eating me up and destroying my ability to function or be truly happy. I feel utterly and completely lost. someone said that I need to grow up, that really kinda hurt cause it seems that my parents can treat me anyway they want and when I finally acknowledge that I can no longer accept this in my life that I am the one who is in the wrong.

You have every right to reclaim ownership of your own identity in all forms. You have been very brave in surviving all this abuse and disconnecting them from your life. Right now, you need to focus on your relationship with your daughter, and you need all the positive energy and calm you can get. It's okay to cut out people who are not understanding or helpful to you.