Hit the wall

[Overthought]

I've hit a new low resently. After a few years of semi-stability I've finally run out of juice. I been missing a lot of school lately and despite everybody's best efforts to help me, I just can't find the energy or the reason to do anything. I don't think I've ever felt so numb and detached. Last night I cried for the first time in years. It was actually kinda refreshing, but now I'm almost surprised my body hasn't just shut down completely. No matter what I think or what someone says to me, it only makes me feel worse. When I hear about how someone else has overcome their problems, I feel weak for not being able to do the same. When I hear about all the people who care about me and want to help me, I feel bad for wasting their time.

[miracleshpn2]

I just read your post ok so you can't find the energy or reason to do anything thats most of the world....missing a lot of school well I'm all for education but there is several ways of receiving it....you have choices...I guess what I'm trying to say is things in life can be overwhelming and society puts way to much pressure on all of us.....shame on them........ I admit it I'm weak and depressed sad and lonely angry and full of hate....all of the above and more......but I'm learning to love me and that is what life is loving ourselves and dealing with all the garbage around us....I wake up in the morning and fight the erge to just not want to be here, then I think of all the things I want out of life and all the good things I still have to give........just remember we have choices don't worry about nobody but you............