The harder I try...
Posted: Sat Mar 02, 2013 10:09 pm
I'm new around here and I won't presume that my problems are greater than anybody ekse's. That being said, I am 26 years old and so very tired of things going wrong. It always seems like the harder I try to better my life, the worse I fail and things come crashing down. I'm engaged to be married this year. My fiancé is a wonderful person who suffers from clinical anxiety. He proposed after I stayed by his side during his second breakdown. That was in 2011. We decided on a long engagement so his health could get better and we could both find good careers. Well nothing went according to plan. We struggle each month to make sure we have a roof, food and gas so I get go to a job I hate everyday while he struggles to find a job that won't notice the give years of unemployment. We had to pawn my engagement ring for has money when the company I slave for cut hours after Christmas. And now we come to find out the hello we thought we were getting for the wedding is not there. Save the dates have arrest been sent out and deposits made that we can't afford to forfeit. I'm getting really irritated by the number of people who keep asking about the honeymoon we probably won't have. And I'm just so tired of every plan we have to get ahead fails. I want to marry my best friend and start a family with him more than anything. But at the rate things are going we'll never be able to afford a wedding much less a family...