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I hate my life I accidently got a girl pregnant really young and thought I would do the right thing by marrying her but I should have waited to give us time to grow up since then I joined the army to help my family financaly we were a happy family then I deployed to Iraq and while I was away my wife turned to drugs and cheated on me and spent all the money I had made while I was gone for a year on drugs I found all this out when I got back I was furious and should have divorced her but I have very few people in my life so I decided to stay with her and attempt to forgive her and help get her off drugs but of course I was furious at her couldn't forgive her for betraying me and have treated her horribly for the last year and she's still on drugs and now I'm almost positive she's cheating on me I knowi should get a divorce and start my life over but iI'm scared to be alone and who will have custody of my daughter who I love more than anything I have been having suicidal thoughts and wishing I would have died in Iraq but I know my daughter needs me in her life wish I had the strength to start my life over

your daughter needs you and you need her. you have courage and strengh to be in iraq and you come back.
dont even think you would have died there. no.remember of those guys who died in iraq.. i bet they wanted to live, they wished to live..but they were not as lucky as you. so each time you have such thought recall them and live. you r young. never loose hope!!!

Walkerdad,

for what it may be worth, first, sir, you have my admiration. I know life is sucking right now for you, BUT... I admire the skill and bravery you've undoubtedly shown in Iraq. And I admire your bravery for coming here and reaching out. I know it probably goes against your grain to show vulnerability but it shows the commitment you've made to your daughter.

If I were to guess (actually, I sense this is more than just a guess), your bravery will surface again for the love of your daughter and your own self-preservation.

Dude, seriously, you've got heart in truck-loads. As bad as things are now, your heart will win out.

Wishing you everything good, bro.

NK