Im 38 and struggling with depression to the point of madness

[justmadeit2]

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[balcony]

Hi Justmadeit12, welcome to the forums. Your post was difficult to read, I am sorry for your pain. You mentioned a brief try of anti-depressants but have you tried any therapy/counseling. It seems to me that the horrific event, ( and you are incorrect, you did not ALLOW it to happen, you were a child) might be something you need some professional help with. People tend to push traumatic, life-altering events deep down within them and they inevitably surface over and over again in other forms.

You might want to check out our chat room here as well. Chat is another resource that provides an opportunity to exchange information with peers and give and receive support.

Welcome and hugs, lisa

[justmadeit2]

hi lisa, thanks for the reply. I have some counselling coming up soon. Will try and make sense of the past and where im at today.

Will check out the chat rooms.

Justin