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hello I am new here. Gosh where to start?? Ok two years ago my marriage fell apart and so I began seeking therapy. I was diagnosted with depression and my doctor wanted to put me on meds. Once I realized I was going to be on meds I looked at them and said this isnt me and I tried to be happy again.
Foward two years, I am a divorced mom of two young girls. In Oct I was layed off from my job and havent been able to find work. I look everyday and several interviews but thats all I get. I was dating a guy for about 5 months off and on and we broke things off because all we did was fight. He never seemed to have time for me.. almost feeling like I was his booty call. So a couple months ago I tried online dating and met someone wonderful who at least I thought was. We clicked instantly and yet went out several times, telling me he cant wait to see me, misses me all that. This past weekend I get a call and he tells me that he cant do this anymore due to the fact hes not ready to date. He thought he was and now hes afraid of getting hurt and just think he wants to be on his own for a while. Im like what?? you talk to someone everyday, have that connection and now nothing. I am truly heartbroken.
Not only does this hurt, Im sad (two of my friends just recently told me that they think Im depressed),have no job, no money, dont even want to make time for my kids, want to sleep during the day and at night I dont ever sleep I sleep maybe 4 hours tops. have no energy and just so sad. I feel like a failure at everything I do,not alot of friends and those I do have all are married or have someone so I just feel so alone. I am always crying so I am hoping that this board will give me the support I need. Thanks for listening

Welcome da_girl! You are no longer alone, we are all here for you now! You have found te perfect place to vent your problems, and to identify with people suffering from similar problems. We are here to talk, listen, and support each other. Take care and keep posting!

thanks i am hoping this helps me out somewhat. I dont have money to pay for help. I have been reading some books lately to read what others are going through too

Hi welcome. I dont know if you are in the US, but if you are there are places you can go for little or no cost and maybe get meds. There is help out there and you can talk here as much as you need.

holly

da_girl,
We also have a chat room here on this site that is very helpful as well, always plenty of people there to talk with. Be sure to check it out if you have not already!

Thanks everyone. I do live in the us and i dont have any insurance so i am unable to pay for help. I looked online and didnt see much in my area but i did find a group that i just joined so i am hoping that its a start.
thanks for the support already.

Sometimes you have to look for help by county. You look for whatever county you live in, (not state) and they can help you find county mental health at a sliding scale level. They do little to no money for meds and appts depending on income. Its helped me a lot over the years.