no interest in anything at all

[loneflower]

Has anyone just lost interest in everything? I have no interest in anything at all anymore. Not a thing. There is nothing left in life that I want to do. So I sit and stare at the walls everyday. People tell me to find interests. I try and I'm just not interested in anything.
My first husband and kids were my life. I miss him so terribly that I feel like it's slowly killing me every day.
I like to be silly, but I have no one to be silly with. No one.
I'm too messed up in the head to work. I can't relate to other people. I probably could if I could find someone funny; but I have no where to go, no where to meet people.
I am not going to take my life, but I sure am ready for it to be over.
No where to go... sit, sit, sit.... walk around the house... check the mail... walk around the house some more.
No one to call... no friends... where do I find them?

[Obayan]

I know exactly how you feel. I pretty much do the same thing. But sometimes we have to do more than just go thru the motions. For me, the non interest comes in waves, it's not constant. But I think that's because even when I have no interest, i still push myself to do things even though at the time i have no interest in it. If i give in, and just sit around this big house all alone, it makes it worse and prolongs it.

[dd-va]

I too have lost interest in many of the things I used to enjoy doing. I have always loved to read, and many times I would find myself unable to put a book down, now I have not picked up a book in at least a year. Like Obayan, I too force myself to do things, even as badly as I do not want to do these things, the alternative is worse. Friends are an issue with me as well, and I find myself alone the majority of the time. I have found several people through this site that help fill this void. It is a great feeling to know whenever I come here, people are happy to see me, and are concerned for me. Feel free to post as often as you like, we are here, listening!

[balcony]

((((((((loneflower)))))) I am sorry things are so difficult for you right now. I can imagine how much you miss you family. Are you seeing a doctor about how you are feeling? I hope you do not blame yourself for the lack of interest or motivation. Depression does that to a person and sometimes a person needs professional help so that they can help themselves make some future choices. Friends are important, contact with others is important and when depression prevents that, life is very difficult. I hope as you work through this you check out our chat room here at DU...it is a wonderful place to listen and share with others about depression and its related issues. There are many people who will make you laugh in chat, and, others whose courage and bravery are truely and inspiration. Best of luck to you, and take care.

[loneflower]

Thank you all sooo much for the advice!!!! I am so grateful for your replies.
I do see a psych. and a good therapist. I just saw my therapist today, and she did help.
Thank you again for replying. God bless you all.

[dd-va]

loneflower...so glad that the therapy is working for you and helping! We all just have to keep fighting the fight, everyday.....we will make it!