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Hi, I'm Robby. I wish I wasn't.

I don't really know how to start this, but basically I feel like I'm a complete waste of flesh. I seem to be alienated by everyone. I don't know what makes me so different, but I feel like a monster. I try so hard to be normal and happy like everyone else, but it doesn't change anything. I have friends I guess, but most of them wouldn't be bothered if I wasn't there. Any close relationship I've had has been ruined by me. I feel worthless.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't be doing this. I'm just screaming out but no one will hear me.

Hi. First off, you are not alone. We hear you and we are right here with you. The best way I know to describe it is this.... depression wraps around us like a fog. It only lets in what it needs to feed. That means all the bad stuff. It makes us feel useless, worthless and waste of good oxygen. But know this, it's a lie. It's what the depression is feeding us so it can grow stronger and us weaker. Please talk to a counselor. It will help if you let it. I went to CBT (cognitive behavior therapy) and it was the best thing I ever did. It showed me how what we think and the way we see things isn't always the way things are in reality. Please talk to a counselor.

Hi, you are definitely not alone in fact I have used that expression before and at this moment I too am not doing well and trying to use the CBT that I have learned but it is all a journey. I have some of the same thoughts and all I can say is there has to be more than this...I am spiritual so I have a belief that life is a lesson but most the time we get mired so deep in depression that we miss alot so try and keep your head in the game.

Hi (((( RobbyWithNoIE )))), you most certainly are not alone in how you feel!
(((( Obayan )))) expressed how I feel at the moment most excellently. Or, as somebody said to me about depression: " Just because you feel it, doesn't mean that it's true. "
I'm still determined to think of myself as a " work in progress ", I'm moving in the right direction, however slowly and uncertainly at times.
As (((( Obayan )))), says perhaps you might think about talking to a counselor? Having a supportive, but external viewpoint of how you feel might well help you gain a new perspective on things. It worked that way for me.