Do know what to do anymore....

[HuRtInG1207]

Ill try and keep this short, but i was pretty happy to find this...i suffer from depression and have for years now......but the more i have stopped to thinki the more i also see that i do things for attention.....grown up i had little to no friends, was picked on EVERYDAY of my life, and when i came home i was mentally abused from my mother as well. Needless to say i didnt have many boyfriends, actually i dont think i had any. I have always played sports and been in shape but all i see is fat when i look at myself. My love life now is still pretty much nothing but heartbreak, cheaters, lies, and loving someone who does not love me back. I do things that end me up in the hospital,and im now wondering if it is because of my deression? of becauswe when im there is almost the only time i feel as though there are ppl that care about me. Dont get me wrong i do have a great family and my dad has always been on my life it just does not seem like its ever enough. I hate myself most of the days and my task of the day is usually to no hurt myself. This rfeally sucks and its not something i enjoy doing. Deep down i know i dont want to die but this depression and NEED NEED NEED for attention may land me takin a dirt nap and im BEYOND scared of that. Im just lost and not sure what to do? any help?

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Hello HuRtInG1207,

Welcome to the forums and I truly hope you will see chatters that are supportive. We also have a chat room that is very supportive and lots of wonderful people there. I do hope you go in and have a talk, get support and make friends.

Warmsoul