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My name is sara, i am 21 years old. i have a beautiful daughter who is almost 18months old.
i am also married to a wonderful man i am just going to refer to a G.

i have been serevly depressed sense 15 years old
i became pregnant at the age of 19 and had very severe baby blues a long time after her birth and am still very deressed.
I got married because i love my husband, not because "i should do it for my daughter." and we have been married a little less then a year.

i am currently taking 200mg of zoloft. now the pills are awesome, i think they help me soo much. but right now, we are nearly so broke that we eat off of just rice and gravey.
i do not have health insurance because my husband is only work part time and is going to school full time, so we don have any money.

i am going to college as well only because i am on military benefits from my father being in the military for many many years, so the government pays for me to go to school for only so long. they also give me housing benefits which gives us 1200$ for our house note and thats it.

other then that, i am staying home with my daughter. i do not have many friends other then those of my husbands friends. i just dont have anyone to really rely on or vent to.

my husband and i fight all the time right now because one: i do not have my medication, we just dont have the money.
i have an apointment at a free clinic but not until march.
two: i dont think he is affectionate enough
three: we are so busy between schooling, him working and our daughter we dont have any time to our selves or with each other.

i just really need some suggestions, or people to rebound off of or something because i am terrified that i am going to destroy my marriage if i havent already.

Hi Helpless,

Welcome to the forums, hope you have read posting of other and see there are many caring people.

You listed some very special and wonderful blessings. Your child, your husband. Good that you see and realize what you have.

March isn't too far off so please do what you can until you can get meds once again. Perhaps sit down and have a heart to heart talk with your husband. Sure he realizes your need for medication and that it will be coming.

Making some time for the just the two of you, is a big step and very important in a marriage, whether it be watching a movie, sharing a meal, or just sitting and holding hands. It is all good. Something to consider.

I will keep good thoughts going for you. Venting here does help, gets it out of the mind and system so you can think a little clearer at times.

Hope to see you continue posting..

Warmsoul