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Posted: Mon Nov 01, 2010 1:18 pm
hi
im new to the site and im looking for abit of help... i was diagnosed with depression at the age of 14 (im now nearly 27) although i never received medication until i was 17.. since then i have been on and off tablets had 2 children and suffered with severe post natal depression leading me to become very detached from my son as i didnt feel i wanted him.. that was in 2004 my daughter arrived in 2005 and i put what i always do on a brave face and a fake smile! from 2005 i was up and down like a yoyo and in 2007 i went to my gp yet again and my medication was changed 3 times from then until now and upped twice.. with no change with how im feeling, i would lie in bed 24/7, cry randomly, no confidence etc and about 2months ago that all changed for which i can not really noticed a difference but people have been watching me very closely and i have now been marched to the doctors and now see why they did in some respects .. i am not sleeping/eating, im hyper like im bouncing off the walls! im 'buzzing' no-one can understand me im talking that quickly! my anger has gone through the roof to the extent where my partner wont let me drive as i got out of the car at traffic lights to argue with somebody that pulled out on me (im normally very shy) .. ive gone to the complete opposite of how i was and i completely feel out of control now! i cant even have my partner sit next 2 me i freak that i havent got enough space! the walls were coming in on me yesterday and i had to leave my house to sit in the garden in the freezing cold and rain and couldnt bring myself to go back in! .. i had my thyroid checked and its perfectly normal and now im being referred but thats all ive been told? my doctor isnt the most understanding to be honest and im scared as to whats going to happen! im scared for my relationship and my children! i feel like im losing my mind and getting no answers from my gp
im new to the site and im looking for abit of help... i was diagnosed with depression at the age of 14 (im now nearly 27) although i never received medication until i was 17.. since then i have been on and off tablets had 2 children and suffered with severe post natal depression leading me to become very detached from my son as i didnt feel i wanted him.. that was in 2004 my daughter arrived in 2005 and i put what i always do on a brave face and a fake smile! from 2005 i was up and down like a yoyo and in 2007 i went to my gp yet again and my medication was changed 3 times from then until now and upped twice.. with no change with how im feeling, i would lie in bed 24/7, cry randomly, no confidence etc and about 2months ago that all changed for which i can not really noticed a difference but people have been watching me very closely and i have now been marched to the doctors and now see why they did in some respects .. i am not sleeping/eating, im hyper like im bouncing off the walls! im 'buzzing' no-one can understand me im talking that quickly! my anger has gone through the roof to the extent where my partner wont let me drive as i got out of the car at traffic lights to argue with somebody that pulled out on me (im normally very shy) .. ive gone to the complete opposite of how i was and i completely feel out of control now! i cant even have my partner sit next 2 me i freak that i havent got enough space! the walls were coming in on me yesterday and i had to leave my house to sit in the garden in the freezing cold and rain and couldnt bring myself to go back in! .. i had my thyroid checked and its perfectly normal and now im being referred but thats all ive been told? my doctor isnt the most understanding to be honest and im scared as to whats going to happen! im scared for my relationship and my children! i feel like im losing my mind and getting no answers from my gp